UNFLESH

MAMMAL

THE ENTIRE CITY

 

 

BELLY OF THE BEAST
Lyrics by Elizabeth Bernholz. Copyright © 2014

I'll beat them all at their at own game
I'll beat them all at their at own game
I'll beat them all at their at own game, bite the hands and the fingers that feed
I'll beat them all at their at own game, swallowing it down, taking my sweet time.

The belly of the beast
I'm stuck in the belly of the beast
The belly of the beast.

I'll take it like milk from a baby
I'll take it like milk from a baby
I'll take it like milk from a baby, suck the teats and the nipples that feed
I'll take it like milk from a baby, swallowing it down, tasting that sweet thing.

I'm stuck in the belly of the beast
I'm stuck in the belly of the beast
I'm stuck in the belly of the beast
I'm stuck in the belly of the beast

I'll take it like milk from a baby.

 

ANTI BODY
Lyrics by Elizabeth Bernholz. Copyright © 2014

Don't know how to feel
When you want to see
All the pain you cause
To your family
Suffering the most
I hear what you say
Everything is clear
I can't live that way
Don't know how to feel
When you want to break
All the things you love
Thinking it's OK
Cutting into flesh
Til the loop returns
Everything is black
Now that you confess

I begin to try
I can't shake the urge
Burying the fear
Stifling the cry
It's not like they said
Best time of your life
Giving all you can
Love you til your dead
I can hear a voice
It begins to shout
Making me believe
I would have no choice
I can feel the eyes
Looking over me
Following my skin
Cannot cease to be

I can't let you in
It takes too much to get out
If I don't let you in
That full force pushes me down
I can't let you in
It takes too much to get out
If I don't let you in
That full force pushes me down

When I was fourteen
I hid in his room
Hoping I would sleep
Never be exhumed
History and the past
It was always there
Swallowing the pill
Til I breathed my last
Suffering the most
I hear what you say
Everything is clear
I can't live that way
Don't know how to feel
When I want to end
All the time I've had
Thinking it's not real

See
Shout
See
Shout

I can't let you in
It takes too much to get out
If I don't let you in
That full force pushes me down
I can't let you in
It takes too much to get out
If I don't let you in
That full force pushes me down

When I was fourteen
I hid in his room
Hoping I would sleep
Never be exhumed
History and the past
It was always there
Swallowing the pill
Til I breathed my last

I can't let you in
It takes too much to get out
If I don't let you in
That full force pushes me down
I can't let you in
It takes too much to get out
If I don't let you in
That full force pushes me down.

 

PHOBIA
Lyrics by Elizabeth Bernholz. Copyright © 2014

When I lay there sleeping sound
An outsider
An outsider
When I knew you would stay with me
An outsider
An outsider

The family is flying down the staircase
Faces in the wall
A recurring dream
You have shown me all
The dark
The dark.

 

GUTS
Lyrics by Elizabeth Bernholz. Copyright © 2014

Mind unfold
Eyes reveal
Heart be still

Deep inside
Every part of you
There's a will
To resist the cell
Deep inside
Every part of you
There's a way

You disguise
This demise
To resist the cell
Why
Why
Why
I
I

Mind unfold
Eyes reveal
Heart be still

 

 

 

 

 

I TURN MY ARM
Lyrics by Elizabeth Walling. Copyright © 2013

Watch the mirror
You know you're going to need it
Touch the cold air
You know you're going to feel it.
Now you're seeing me move all of my fingers
See me holding up my hand in the faltering strip light.

Turn my arm, touch the cold air

Touching everything I want to hold
Black on my skin
It's sheer and cold.
Feel a thousand pins all over my thumb
Twenty-seven bones as I turn my arm.

Touch the cold air
Turn, turn my arm
Touch the cold air
Turn my arm.

 

THIS IS MY HAND
Lyrics by Elizabeth Walling. Copyright © 2013

This is my hand
It will turn away
I can move it
Blood gushing.

This is my heart
It will drip away
I can feel it
Blood gushing.

As a young child
I made silhouettes
Touching pitch black
Blood gushing.

Mother beside me
Sleeping silently
I could hear her
Blood gushing.

I used to think
Nothing would end
I used to think
Nothing would end.

Well help me
Please.
Insufferable end.

 

HEARTBEAT
Lyrics by Colin Newman. Copyright © 2013 - 2014

I feel icy
I feel cold
I feel old
Is there something there behind me?
I'm sublime

I feel empty
I feel dark
I remark
I am mesmerised
By my own beat
Like a heartbeat
In it's own beat
Like a heartbeat.

 

 

 

 

All Lyrics by Elizabeth Walling. Copyright © 2009 - 2014

CONCRETE MOTHER
When all has turned to dust
Our city is a ghost
The Concrete Mother stands alone
A hidden world.

The colours will all fade
Flooded forests and undergrowth
But she'll still be there when it's done
She'll be our home.

I'll live ashore
I'll wait under her neon heart, so long
And she'll teach me love subconsciously
For everything that now, cannot be.
For she is stone
She is stone.

She'll teach me love subconsciously
For everything that now, cannot be.
For she is stone.

 


MEN LIKE GODS
Now I'm a demon running wild
All minds are upon me
So come out and reveal your deepest fear
When your heart gives in too soon
To Gods
Gods.

Now I'm collecting your souls tonight
A million fires before your harvest comes
To burn out
Wear the mask of a heathen
For the moon's lonely eyes
They see
They see
The Gods
Gods
Gods
Gods.

To Gods
Gods
Gods
Gods.

 

I AM SHELL I AM BONE
Made of iron made of stone
I am shell and I am bone
Teach the Mother's skull away
I'll tell them now
I'll tell you all.

We have no tongue
We have no choice
Now I don't care
What He said was 'light', no.

Made of concrete made of gold
I am young and I am old
Preach the Son's eternity
You tell them lies
You tell them all

You are the child
You have no choice
Now I don't care
What He said was 'light', no.

 

CHANGELINGS
I'll sit here a while
I'm waiting lonely like a shadow in the night sky.
You sit here a while
And wait beside me 'till the next star rises.

I came and I saw
I saw the end of the world we know
You came and you saw
You'll disappear before the next star rises.

Out of time...
You change so very easily
Changing over and again and again and again.

So you
You go feel the Son
I'll watch you knowing all your cheaters and liars.

 

BELL TOWER
When will I know itís over?
Enough has already passed.
Iím not even sure Iíll ever know
How much it all cost me
Dearly.

Such an open wound to heal
I twitch, yet Iím so near.


 

WHEN I WAS OTHERWISE
Iíd chosen all the names
Iíd cheated all the games
And no one made a sound
Until I had grown.
Let all your fear be gone
I'll lie here
Wasted.

When seeds are sown
And love has grown
But all Iíve known
Is Him.

Now you see me
Now you donít.

 


OBELISK
Deep beneath for so long
I see it grow in living roots
We live in caution in your arms.

Lifting up so far it scares me cold
It typifies
It highlights all our lies.

Like an automatic living force within us
Waging war upon war
With our fires burning
Obelisk.

Waking up from a deep sleep
We don't know what's ours until it's gone
We live in caution in your eyes
And when we give up
We won't feel the destruction
Living was hard enough
With our fallen minds
We'll call
To you we shall
To your arms
Your open arms
Obelisk

Like an automatic living force within us
Waging war upon war
With our fires burning
Your open arms
Your open arms
Your open arms
Your open arms.

 

NEST
Beyond the sun there is so much
Soon it will stop shining back on everything-
Us.
After all is said and done
We are living.

When time catches up will we still misunderstand?
Its icy touch
Amazing how we're still alive
We will fly, we will fly
The universe our nest
We will fly

When it's too late
When life is sink or swim
Will we stop then?
Will we ever learn?
You take your time and you will easily break.

Its icy touch
Amazing how we're still alive
We will fly, we will fly
The universe our nest
We will fly.


 

ABANDON
Hide
I would give up
All of my needs
I'd willingly throw away
All my hidden goods
I would sacrifice
Every living creature
In my world
Just to hold you
Hide